I’ve been having really weird dreams lately. Normally, I wouldn’t care, but these dreams are leaving a kind of lasting impression on me, and it’s affecting my daily life.
One night I had this really weird dream, I was with a close friend of mine, at some place I’ve never been to in my life, wherever I was, I knew it was comfortable, she was sitting right next to me, or more like on my lap or leaning very close to me, she had her arms around my neck, and she was looking at me, and she looked very happy, she had a glow around her face, an innocence, an expression, more like a question, I’ve never seen anything like that before, and I looked deep into her eye, I could feel it, I could physically feel the passion, the heat, as I took her face in my hands and kissed her.
I woke up, and I felt “different”, in a good way, in a really, pleasingly, good way. The first thing I did that day was to check out her photos in Facebook, I guess I had an unexplainable urge to see her, and it felt kind of nice. Before I knew it, I was in love with her, I just have to see her all the time, talk to her, be with her, and if I can’t do any of these, I just have to keep thinking about her, and all the classic symptoms as put forth by the poets and artists since time unknown, they’re all there, the more I started thinking about it, the more I realized she is the perfect woman is for me. Until today when I realized I was actually addicted to her in a very unhealthy way, I’m obsessing.
Do I genuinely like her or is it all the lasting effect, like a hangover, of a silly stupid dream? How can I be for sure, when I think about it, she’s just the perfect person, I just like everything about her, she’s spontaneous, she’s smart, she’s fun, she’s classy, she’s optimistic, she’s honest, she’s straight forward, she’s got a fairly good humour sense, I can talk to her for hours on end about anything and not get bored, and I like me when I’m with her, I’m like a whole other person, it’s all good. But why didn’t I notice before?
Is she or is she not. ?